sian orientation gonna over soon, no more chance to slack liao =/
sia la, i think i gg for this yr, bcos during 4hr break, almost everywhere i turn to gt study grps D:
JUZ RIGHT AFTER THE MATHS LECTURE o.0
MUGGING.
during orientation summore ahhhhh

ah well, at least i managed to get the class started on making class flag =/
yay the class is starting to warm up wif each other....wif the exception of me i think =/
i dun make friends easily ='(
and the Sc-meet-faculty gathering was super high can?
teacher: '...the faculty of Athena...'
students: [cuts in] 'WOOOOOOOO.....' + applause :D
so whenever the teacher said the A-word, we'll juz zi high a while XD
09 Athena will be the zi high fac for the yr i tell u
ATHENA FTW!!!!!

zzz made a name for myself in bio lecture
needed to get lecture notes, but i stuck in the middle of the row
then the female lecturer [who likes dogs, zzz i cant rmb her name] started on the lecture
zzz didnt hav the SPA notes....thoughts during the time i didnt hav the notes:

'crap she started b4 i could get the notes'
'sian where all the xtra copies'
'yit khai suay suay only found for himself and shawn'
'shyt, everyone ard me has the notes, they still furiously copying notes'
'surrounded D:'
'i cant reach / stretch my hands, this frail limited body...'
'argh, y the rest of the teachers go sit down to listen'
'great how m i supposed to get the notes nw?'
'wait. wait. wait, after lecture can get wad'
'ya right, then get scolded by teacher? and how u copy notes? ppl ard u dun seem to want to help u'
'u fail....miserably'
[at this time, i was fidgeting, and lo, i saw a teacher walking the left upper staircase handing out notes]
'i m saved! oi sian, he nt looking, crap gotta get attention'
'how to? w/o disrupting the lecture?'
'haiz, i gotta try'
[at this time i buay tahan raise my hand to get attn]

lecturer: [in outburst] hey u, the boy in the centre right in front of me, wad do u want?
me: [thought] [recall prev thoughts] i want the green....[hey call it wad? w/o incurring the oh-so-mighty's wrath?]
lecturer: the green notes? [pissed voice]
me: err....ya
lecturer: how many times have i told u ppl to come down and get if dun hav? [anger rising]
me: [thought] 'heck how i supposed to answer? you want me to spam my thoughts to the whole audi, that i couldnt get it in time? or u wan the short answer so that i wont disrupt the whole lecture?' ------so i kept quiet here, so foolish -.-
lecturer: [tells that she printed xtra copies of the notes, and that sum1 was holding them]

ok thoughts again:
'zzz she made me look like a fool'
'punish her, punish her' --- [ok tt was my alter ego(AE) speaking]
'if only i had extendable arms....'
AE:'weakling, having such a frail body'
'gr8, my frens would despise me for this'
'hey, u juz made urself notorious u idiot'
AE: 'bungle bungle bungle, tts only wad u r gr8 at, right?'
'yay gt notes liao, shuddap AE'
AE: 'destructive thoughts'
AE: 'so many limits in this place of education...'
AE: 'one day....the filth of ur kind will be crushed under my arms'
'i'll watch u try'
AE: '[derisive laughter], by then it'll be too late, human...i'll help u right ur wrongs....when i feel like it, rest assured they WILL pay'

zzz....see? tts y u dun see me talking much
nor tt any1 would want to know what i think
they'll all be so caught up in making new frens anyway
everyone has their own circle of friends....
but i feel that they hav forsaken me
those that i can easily tell my feelings to, always hav sth on or cast me aside
theres a reason friends r called friends
they'll always b there when u nid help
but nt mine.
no one wants me to be around them
inwardly, i know they r juz accomodating me

they hav separated frm whom i say are my real frens
see how u'll like it when u r separated frm ur loved ones
my friends, my loved ones, are all forcibly taken away from me...one by one ='(
they wont realise it, or they'll choose nt to....
y muz they wrench my friends, my loved one frm me?
once the line is crossed, i cant turn back anymore

my mind's a whirl,
my thoughts are a swirl.
no one will help,
not when they think of their own.
looking at others having bliss,
knowing i only do corrupt,
what or who r my friends, i wonder?

i juz know i forgot to add sth....juz cant rmb wad =/
my mind's failing me D:


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