i have been thinking...

[ignore this if u dun wan to waste time, bcos wad i talking here may not make sense at all]

it seems tt ppl hav 2 sides
i dunno,
its like they r hiding their true feelings, thoughts frm u
like they're wearing a mask, hiding their true selves behind it
mayb i m juz too sensitive
u noe the feeling when u try to help, but bungle up things for the other person instead?
or mayb u can sense forced laughter at times,
ppl showing emotions tt r probably contrary to wad they're feeling,
or mayb they're juz being accomodating, knowing tt the person is right in front of them.

i cant decipher ur thoughts
i cant b able to know wad u r truly feeling
i hav 2 noe
how else would i b able to change for the better?

ppl say 1st impressions matter,
and tts wad some mercenary ppl take advantage of,
presenting themselves in a good light,
while others, unfortunately, while attempting to help, screw up in front when meeting new ppl,
giving them a bad impression

y?
juz bcos we try to help but unknowingly made the prob worse
muz u pin all the blame on those who help?
or, juz bcos a person like to keep to himself,
must u treat him like an outsider, juz bcos he doesnt like to talk
or even when he does, he does not contribute to the discussion

then mayb he shud leave,
separate himself from this circle of 'friends', shudnt he?

i m having trouble as how i shud define 'friends'
r those tt i noe juz by their faces considered my friends?
i dun know them well enuf
yet, those tt i know well,
dun seem to treasure me
or mayb tt juz wad i feel... ='(


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