i deleted the post abt me admitting to my crush that i liked her as exaggerations were flying in fast and furious.....including teasing frm classmates and siblings -.-
and yes, that post contained stuff abt my alter ego H-ARM doing the admission to her........wonder if i shud subject myself and her (if any) to such kind of emotional torture =(
i even highly doubt if the feeling is mutual anyway, and i oso believe she'll avoid me from now on.....
feeling despondent now, even H-ARM's scorning me for such foolish thoughts

H-ARM: 'what is the point of this self-inflicted torture, boy? it will not amount to anything'
me: 'sigh, sometimes i wonder what is the point too....but....if she doesnt like me, why doesnt she say it str8?'
H-ARM: 'hath ye no brain, of course she wouldnt, she doesnt want to.....deflate your non-existent ego.....'
me: 'but........'
H-ARM: 'just wait for her reply and stop involving in such useless conversations, mortal, i got better things to do.....'

see how everyone niao-s me? no excuse not to feel despondent, even 1 of my classmates teased me today after reading my blog 4 the 1st time -.-
i need to fix the probs in my blog format too.....


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